On Beauty & the Wasteland - v.4 / issue 2 - Rallying Roar

  

On Beauty & the Wasteland

V. 4 / issue 2

Rallying Roar

I am ordered to mediation/arbitration in a post-decree matter. We are attempting to come to agreements for how to proceed in this process. I can’t consent to the agreements as proposed by my ex’s counsel and validated by the mediator/arbitrator. They aren’t considering my current concerns with these agreements saying they are not consistent with former court orders. They show no good-will attempt at consensus-building even after I asked for support in doing so. 

This is what he does. What I say doesn’t matter because he has some dead document I signed under similar duress in the past which he uses to prove what I’m saying now is irrelevant. He and the legal system don’t seem to care about the compounding of damage this is doing to me and our family. It started when I signed a prenup he dropped on me 2 weeks before our wedding in 2006. I am still living with the consequences of my poor judgement in signing that document. I can’t get out from underneath this alone.

It’s horrific. It is dehumanizing. It is mother bear being tied down and gang raped. They will say I already gave consent in the past and so therefore I have already consented. I can’t be complicit in my own rape again. If they can’t bind me this way, he will bring a bigger gang in the form of more court motions and more judges, etc.  I will say no, I do not consent — Again and again. On repeat. 

I told them I’m unavailable for the next 2 weeks, and will be available again to continue this conversation beginning on July 24, 2023. During this time, I need to rally all the help and support which I know is here for me and receive all I can in all the ways. 

Can you offer your help or support? I know that not everyone can support a bear. And I also know, even a bear cannot do it alone. 

Erica