On Beauty & the Wasteland - v.4 / issue 5 - Foreground - Background

On Beauty & the Wasteland 
v.4 / issue 5

Foreground-Background

Foreground-background optical illusion. 

I was gifted a personal meditation recently. In it, I found a part of me who seemed to be in my foreground, in front of me, blocking me in. I asked him to move behind me instead. 

It’s a very different feeling. To have a protector who stands guard attuning to danger compared to a protector who is attuning to me. The latter feels much safer and freer. Much more protective. 

And today, I got a flat. I don’t know anything about things like fixing flat tires. And I don’t want to know. 

As soon as I thought about asking for help, a neighbor came out whom I’ve never met before (because I isolate.) He did the whole thing for me. Even cleaned up putting my flat and all the tools back into my trunk all neat and organized!. I didn’t feel like a damsel in distress. I felt like a queen receiving service from a knight. 

This meditation is medicine! It seems to shift what people see about me and who I attract. It shifts what I see about other people, too. And who I feel attracted to.  What I am available to receive and what people ask of me. 

I don’t feel attraction for this man who helped me. He was playing his social role in the world and recognized me as a receiver of what he has to give. 

Is it this simple?

I feel so much gratitude to this man for his service. For the universe for the gift of this medicine. 

So much gratitude 

I’m about to burst.